just put it all over the net, no one will notice anyway

FUCK YOU. FUCK THIS. FUCK EVERYTHING.

i have never felt like this before. i feel so alone and there is nothing i can do. i want to die. i literally want to drown everything away. i want to sit in the shower and cry. i want to scar myself so i am constantly reminded of how much of a horrible person. HOW LONG WILL THIS FUCKING GO ON FOR.

if you looked hard enough, you would have realised by now

i am so sick of you and destructing every life you cross through,

please leave and stop hurting everybody you come near.

stop hurting friends AND family.

just stop with all your bullshit,

please. i beg you.

can't touch me, hammer time!

i am actually failing at this whole blog thing, now that i have a diary i use that more than this

but lately, things are changing. things are better

and i like it that way :)

we can go no where but up

sometimes even the clouds can't block out the sun you need

travel funds

get me to the moon and back

take a break. have a kit kat.

i would like to go away for a little bit,

and reflect on the past 6 months of my life.

look at the person who i was

who i am now

and the person i never want to be

but life's a funny thing isn't it,

because in the end we all end up being the person we swore we'd never be.

and that's the sad little ending, to most of our pointless little lives.

LOL jk, life is totally worth it.

life is actually very simple

i haven't blogged in a while

maybe its because i'm having trouble putting my thoughts into words

or my feelings into sentences

maybe i'm just sick of everything and i can't explain anything properly

this used to be a way for me to let everything out and just know that somewhere all the things i may have felt or wanted to people to know about were out there. i just wanted someone to listen to me for once. i just wanted to be seen.

but now i'm back, because i will admit that i have missed it. and i think i have a lot to say these days. because i'm a teenager, and god forbid if my life was ever to be normal and drama free

just a few notes to string together my feelings

music forever

i'll love you forever, that's the problem

good friends. hard to find. i thought i'd found few, but once again, i was mistaken.

mrs fiona charming

hehe, i like you

saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah..

i

think

we

are

taking

this

indie

thing

a

bit

too

far

now.

i just can't get you off my mind and why would i even try?

and even if the moon fell down tonight

there'd be nothing to worry about at all

because you make the whole world shine

as long as your here everything will be alright

14.4 - 3.6

So now I'm "home", it makes me wonder. What is home? It feels like there's these 2 worlds i have, and to people who haven't been there they think one's better than the other, but too me, they're the same. They both have goods and bads, they both have people you love and people you hate, people you want and people you need, excitement and enjoyment, fear and courage, laughter and tears and everything else in between. But now that I'm never able to go back to my other home, its left a hole in me. The hole's healing, but now with the things that I miss from there, but the things I was missing when i was there. It's okay though, because I've had my chance, and I've got all the memories, memories for a lifetime.

why can you see right through me?

i live, i breathe

i let it rain on me

i sleep, i wake

i try hard not to break

grant you three wishes.

if i can hand out one piece of advice

Life's too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. Love the ones who treat you right, forget the ones who don't. Remember that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. No one said it would be easy, they just promised it'd be worth it.

amen.

freedom, las vegas

not even words

can say

how much i missed you

and how much

i now realise

i need you

i love you

there's no place like home

that's true. but this isn't my home.

goodbye for now, but not forever

So here I go it's my shot, feet fail me not, cause this may be the only opportunity that I got..

Well I'm going away for a while.

I don't think I will be able to survive.

Someone help me.

Someone save me.

Someone come with me :(

I don't want to leave

This is too long

Please... oh please don't make me go away...